I wish iI had taketaken the same action as him.
So a little about me, since iSince I was 13 years old iI was attracted to kids my age and younger all boys.
I knew iI was gay, but as soon as iI got older and older and still feelfelt an attraction to younger kids, i I saw that it was a problem, but iI never told anyone about it justbecause of the fear to beof being rejected and the way people think about you, scared me so i holdI held my biggest depression secret. When iI was 13 years old I found a lot of images of child sexual abuse to. I download some that I wish iI had never have watched, well i. I kept watching and download tilldownloading until I was 21 years old when finally the FBI finally got me. < this This can sound bad, but wasn'tit was such a relieverelief for me to get cachedcaught so iI could get help, because there is no help, everybody that feelfeels the same way I felt needneeds to be cachedcaught to finally get help and that is sad because most people go to jail first and go with me i. I know people that went to jail because they download child pornography but never abused a childrenchild, which is the same situation as mine. I I never went to jail that's because the FBI still working in my "CASE" , see I'm"case". I'm scared and every peopleperson that iI know from my Group Therapygroup therapy was scared of going to jail, I. I don't know how people feel about people like me, but going to a prison sounds horrible because you never got help to cure your selfmyself of this problem that you don't know how to solve and then. Then you need to go to jail and be there with people that is worstare worse then you, not judging because everybody got theyhas their problems, but it is scary to be there with murders.
So iI live in the US but imI'm not from the US either, I'm. I'm really glad that your son told you about what he feels. A lot of people don't tell their parents because they feel like me and all the other people that couldn't tell with the fear of beenbeing interpreted wrong because letslet's face it the world interpretersinterprets wrong, they. They don't care about youyou; they want you to die or go to jail.
He is 15 so is still a good time to find a therapist to help him, look. Look for a therapist that works with sexual offenders < that's(that's what they call me but iI hate this word). Why? Well no one helped me to fix my problem, then they call you that and put you in jail and the worst part is with your name i'll belabel I'll always be dirty.
Not calling your son a sexual offender, he isn't one just like me. Why find a therapist that works with sexual offenderoffenders? Because Because they will not judge your son like some other therapists doesdo because they don't have experience with this type of subject.
I'm 22 years old now and if I was your sonsson's age and my mom knew about my problem I would like my mom to be Openopen and understand that this that iwhat I feel i. I don't know how to fix it, but I'm willing to try really hard to change . (byBy the way now my mom knowknows and my step dad and my sister) also know; they arehave really been a support in my life. So) So just be patient with him and, don't judge, and remember that he told you something that is really hard to tell anyone.
Second part IMPORTANT!!
Make sure that he is not downloading child pornography / accessing any place that he can get images / videos of children in the age that he got ahas an attraction to. Child pornography will not help in nothing. It will just make the feeling worstworse and if you want to change you gothave to commit yourself to not go to the place where it is slippery.
Depression / no friends / Fearfear to go to places like shopping mallmalls / thinking of Suicide Thatsuicide. That is what iI felt most of my life when I was 13 to 18 years old life.
Suicide all the time, I never tried to kill myself, but iI always though about that the world would be better if iI killed myself. Or why god choose me to be like this and not someone else. Some suicidesuicidal thoughts that iI had like buying a gun and shooting my head, freezefreezing to death, taketaking some medicine like a lot till get a overdoseuntil I overdosed, or asking a friend to shoot me in the head, I. I never used drugs and iI don't drink, but iI though of using drugs till iuntil I die or don't feel in my normal state of mind anymore, drown myself.
Well soSo be aware of that and help him out, just make sure that you are open to help him because this path is not easy but he still young so maybe tell him some stuff that iI talked about here, so he can be aware of it too.
Someone edited my topic and removed everything that i talked about, for the people that is editing and trying to help like anongoodnurse if you could edit again, sorry I'm new to this place and by mistake I accepted someone else changes to my answer.
I would like to tell you one more thing just so you be aware of. Some Some people isare recommending forums, I. I do not recommend any of them, from. From my own experience, in some of thisthese forums there is a lot of people there that they don't want to change, some. Some people may try to manipulate you to do bad things and don't let your son join any of this forums, if. If it is for your selfyourself so you can helpfind a better way to help him itsit's fine, but if it is for him to join, just don't, there is. There are a lot of people in these forum that isare willing to help you, but there isare a lot that just wants to do bad things. Even thothough your son feelfeels attracted to young kids a forum like that can be a way of other people trytrying to manipulate your son. So just be careful. Virped i
Virped, I do not recommend, a. A lot of people there doesn'tdon't want to change (I tried to get help at this place and they banned me saying that iI couldn't change) and letslet's face it, the one with the name virped was really rude to you.
After 2 hours tryingI was able to find aan article that i heardI read a while ago about a 19 yearsyear old pedophile that i, and I feel exactly like him, i can post here to show you:
So it's aIt's an audio on sound cloud :
