It all started when I first meet my stepfather when I was 11 years old. at first, I thought he was a good person and I can trust him. After one year I meet him again when he already married my mother. We started to live together and the days went well but there was something I didn't like. I noticed that he looked at me strangely, and when I was alone with him, he touches my private parts. Luckily, I when to a boarding school and didn't meet him for 4 years. When I returned home, I thought he changed because he didn't do the things, he usually do to me. Well, contrary to my expectations he didn't change. after few days he started to the middle with my private life saying as an excuse that he is my (step)father that spends money to educated and disciplined me but that's not all he also wanted to know what was I talking about or what I want to talk with my mother, where I’m or where I’m going to and says to let the door of my room open even when I change my clothes and most of the time complains about my mother (most of the time because of her behavior) and when I am alone he comes to my room and starts talking about sex and starts touching me and use as an excuse like he is just teaching me or says that's ok because we are family. From that day whenever he touches me, I became angry and say to him to not touch me. and because of that, he says that I don't respect him and I even don't consider him as my father. He also says that I must regard him more than a father because he spends time and money on me. When I stay for few days at home and then prepare my luggage to return to the boarding school, he always checks my luggage to see what I took with me. I am still living in a boarding school but recently he started calling me home because he feels lonely. And also, he started interfering with my school life (what I study, my grades, friends, etc.) and also giving me extra homework to do on top of my school homework. Because of all the things that he's doing I always argue with him I mean like if we see each other I always try to argue with him over something. I think I had developed fear toward boys because I feel if I approach too close to them, they will do something to me. Every time when my stepfather, men, or any boy suddenly approaches me I instinctively jump away in fear. Sometimes even my hand starts to slightly tremble, but when I’m with my two brothers I don't feel the same way so I didn't give it much through. After reading all this what do you think? is it normal what he is doing?
What should I do?
Did I do right to reject body contact with him? I’m a 16 years girl who didn’t have a father from the start and I don't really know how it works the relationship between father and daughter so I really need your advice about it. ~Thanks~
