I love my parents very much and I'm extremely grateful for everything they've done for me. Sadly, there's some things that mess with my head. I'm only a freshman in highschool (USA), and I've been diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression, and I'm fairly certain I also have ADHD.
The problem is that my parents don't believe in any of that stuff, and say "It's all in my head". When they found out I was cutting myself, they got angry with me and took my phone. They told me I wasn't actually feeling that way, and that I got it from some girl in school. When I went to the doctor for a checkup, and I got diagnosed with severe depression and ended up telling them about my suicide attempts, they got mad at me for filling out the questions truthfully, because the doctors are just going to try and "put me on medication".
I looked it up and it looks like the things (mainly my dad) does are "emotionally abusive". I try to talk to them but they always say, "again, what we're doing wrong?" "you're so selfish" "can't you look past your ego?" "Its always 'memememe'". I'm just so done.
My mother was the only one who supported me when I came out as Pan. My dad just ignores it. It could be a lot worse and I'm grateful that it's not. What I find especially annoying is that my dad will do something like push me over for forgetting to recycle the cereal box. Then a few weeks later when he accidentally hits me in the head with a door, and I take offense to that, he's all "Why would I do that on purpose? I love you, why would I hurt you?"
I'm not saying it's horrible or anything. It's like I don't have a voice. I'm only on here because I figured out that I could open an Incognito window on my laptop during school (in which I get straight A's and am in the Gifted program). I'm not allowed to breathe without being monitored. The only thing stopping me right now from ending it is my grandparents, because I know they'd be heartbroken. Please help, I don't know what to do.