So i cleaned my room and i was in a hurry so forgot to do the bed and forgot to close a cabinet, when i get home my dad starts screaming at me and this always happens and i always cry and now i'm depressed and want to die but i'm christian and scared to kill myself what do i do? I"v already tried to avoid it or be perfect but that didn't work,i mean he yelled at me for having a sock on the ground.yes i have a mom and a dad and also a brother and a sister but he doesn't yell at them like that.
It's a good first step that you asked for help. But your problem can't be solved by random people on the internet and therefore isn't a good fit for this web site.
But there are people who can help you to be resilient, to change the situation at home or to get you out of this situation, whatever might in the end be the best.
- Is there some relative that you trust that you might ask to help you?
- Is there a teacher that you can trust?
- You might talk to your doctor.
- Your might talk to the parents of close friends.
- You mention you're religious. Maybe there is someone at church who can help?
Depending of where you live and your age, doctors and priests might be forbidden by law to share any information you provide with your parents, unless you agree. If this is important, you can search about that online, or just ask them about it before you talk more.
If you cannot think of anybody you already know, that you trust and that might be of help, there will be telephone hotlines (as mentioned in a comment) and the authorities (child protection services or whatever those are called where you come from). This very much depends on where you are living, but a search on the internet ("children help line", "child service" or in case of suicidal thoughts "suicide hotline" combined with your locality) and on the homepage of your local council should provide you with phone numbers or mail addresses where you can get help.