My eldest son will be 5 in 2 weeks time. Since the birth of our second boy, 7.5 months now, we have been totally consumed by him as he demands attention. Our eldest son just use to play with his Nintendo Switch and used to ask me to play and eventually started using an iPad. From time to time, I do colour with him, and take him out to cycle and teach him new tricks, but I feel I'm missing a lot.
I have a very volatile career as a web developer; I am losing my job again and again. My wife's brother moved in with us as they are not financially stable, so I provided for them until 2 weeks back when I quit my job due to stress. I feel like I am not excelling in my career and try to study all the time, but now I have the guilt of neglecting my family. I ask myself if I am the best developer because I don’t spend time with my son. I can’t teach him school things, can’t go out regularly with him and now my second son has taken most of my time.
I can see in my son's eyes, he wants time, but ever since my own teenage years, I have been sitting in front of a computer all day. I don’t know how to make a routine to bond with my son. His routine is turning out to be like mine. All day television, iPad and then sleep. I don’t want him to be raised like that. At the same time our second son is a constant attention seeker.