I am a 15-year-old and this is my problem : I was raised in an extremely Christian environment, I had no problem following what my parents and the church thought was best for me.
About three years ago I started to reflect about my position in Christianity and I realized I didn't actually believe. So since that time I question whether what my parents taught me was right.
I started to have feelings that I couldn't understand later I discovered that I was transgender and that really helped me put a name on what I was going through.
The problem is my parents neglect anything non-God related and lately I've been trying to be myself around them more. But they have been oppressing me when I try to express myself.
I tried to kill myself twice because I just can't be around them anymore (the rest of my family is also Christian, so I don't have anyone to trust in my family). They said I was selfish for not considering what the church might think about my behavior. I am really tired of lying to them. Now that we are confined 24/7 there's no escape. I just want to be able to be myself without them judging my every move.
How should I address this as an underage individual ? (Please note the fact that I can't talk to them about my feelings without crying)