I chose to study medicine; but the main reason for this choice are my parents, as they don’t believe that I can be successful in other fields.
But even getting into medical school requires me to study so hard for the entrance exam for more than a year, every day for like 10 hours or more including the weekends.
I started studying last year and continued throughout the summer and now I feel so unmotivated, and there is still 7 months left to get ready for the examm, which is taken by 200,000 people.
If I don’t pass the exam? "Well, I should study for the next year and take the exam again" (it is only once a year and makes my future)
My mom puts so much pressure on me to study, and when I get a bad grade she complains about it, instead of looking for the reason and we get into a fight most of the times, and she makes me cry.
I literally start shaking and I'm already stressed enough. I think she shouldn’t control me that much; as a 17 year old I feel this amount of studying is too much for me but I still want to do it and when I'm doing poorly in studying, I know it and I'm sad myself and I don’t need someone else to remind me my bad grades or the low hours of studying and make me even even more depressed.
I want my mom to know this and for it to sound logical to her.
I’ll be so thankful if you can help me