I don't know what to do anymore because domestic violence is an everyday problem for me.
I really wish I could just make it stop, or explain to them how I feel. But I know they wouldn't because my family is Mexican and that they are very strict. They yell and curse at me (in Spanish). When they hit me they hit me on the legs or my back or some times my arms and they use the belt or a wooden spatula. It's got so bad that sometimes I have bruises for weeks.
I'm too scared to tell the police because they are my parents and I do love them even though I'm going through so much.
Sometimes I feel that I deserve it because I do sometimes talk back but not in that kind of bad way like only to defend myself. Even my grandmother makes things worse by saying how the old days were and how it's ok and fine to hit children and sometimes make them bleed. I could add many stories of my father's violence.
This problem got worse ever since the day when they took everything from me (my phone, my skateboard, my TV, and my room). I don't know why. But the things they took actually made me calm and relaxed. These were things I had bought with my own money.
I have a girlfriend and she's the only person that makes me feel loved and cared for, she and her family, even though they don't know my problems. If I told them my parents would kill me. My girlfriend also calms me down from doing anything stupid and I've been with her for a year now.
And so I need help and advice to figure what I can do to help my situation.
Sometimes I think to myself and ask myself if I have anger issues or if I'm depressed because I usually cry myself to sleep and wake up hoping today will be amazing but it's the opposite.
What governmental or charitable organizations other than the police can I go to for help?