I don't know why I'm writing this I guess I just want to vent out and get some advice.
So ever since I was about 8 or 9 my parents pressure me to get good grades and get into a good high school. And now I got into this private high school (S1 12 years old) my parents still aren't pleased. I was never a confident person so I never really speak up. But recently they got me a personal maths tutor cause my maths wasn't at it's best. I feel like I have anxiety (probably not) it's just that I felt super nervous about doing the tutor thing. Anyways it was at my mums friends house and the maths tutor also tutors my mums friends son who is 3 years above me. They always compare me to him which is hard cuase his level is way higher than mine. And the tutor was confusing me and making me anxious about the answers to my answers even though I know they're right. After that my mums friends son told her about how bad I was at my tutoring session and both my parents have been scolding to me about it. And lately I have been crying myself to sleep. It's the pressure and what they call me, they call me 'idiot, stupid brat, untalented ect' and my confidence little by little goes away. I just need some help and some cheering up I guess, sorry if this was long I hope I didn't waste your time.