Okay, I saw where someone else asked this question, but I had something else to add to it. I have been going to church my whole life and faithfully following the Christian religion for 18 or so years. I'm 20 years old, and I have been having doubts about my faith for about 2 years now. My parents are extremely conservative, very controlling, and strong practicing Christians. I recently came to the conclusion that I am a deist (I believe in a natural God who created everything but not in a God who allows people who don't believe in him to burn in hell). Anyways, my parents told me that I had to apply to be a leader at this Christian camp out in California, and I got the job. I don't want to go because I am not Christian. I only applied and went through the motions because I was basically forced. I don't want to go now, and I have no idea how to tell them. I have to buy my plane tickets relatively soon (within the next couple of weeks), so I need to do something quickly. I am also financially dependent on them for the most part (mostly my grandparents, but they have control over them). They think that I have to be exactly the way they want me to be instead of who I think is best for me to be. I'm stuck, and I need advice.